Acceptance

The topic last night at Support group was patience. We talked about what being patient means and what are our triggers problems.  This lead to a discussion of acceptance.  All in the group has different levels of acceptance.  One man I feel has totally embraced his TBI and another is in total denial of what his limits are.  I am somewhere in between.  I realize that I'm not the worst case scenario nor the best.  I have a ways to go.

I have to remind myself often to slow down, take my time and let go of things at least 3 times a day.  That is what my family/friends are for, I need to remember to listen to them and know that they are telling the truth, they can see me falling apart and they are just warning me.  We talked about how our family is the person we lash out at first because they are "safe".  We used the word grieve and that we need to grieve correctly.  For those that have extreme memory loss that means that person needs to grieve everyday.  I don't have this problem but need to remember I'm not the old me and I need to focus on what I can do and not what I cannot do.  Makes grieving a whole lot easier.

I think that is why I don't miss my old job at all.  I grieved it and it's "dead" to me.  I love to teach and am finding a new way to do that.  I will be teaching English to Spanish speaking adults in 13 days, I'm so very happy.

After the meeting last night, I realize that I have a long ways to go but I will continue to work on it.  I will accept my new life but keep striving for better but not let what I can't do determine who I am, only what I can do!