Finally, tears!

Today hasn't been a good day, I got very ill over night and was so very exhausted that I slept til 11.  Thanks to my eldest being a royal pain, I got up, took her shoes to her that she needed, then stopped and painted at the cafe for awhile.  I then proceeded to come home and sleep.  I know that nobody expects me to do everything but I'm feeling a bit cheated because I miss so much because I "cannot overdo it".  Now the rational part of my brain can understand this very well but the emotional part gets hurt and feels cheated.  Guess which part is running along the Polish road? I am tired of feeling blessed, which I know I am, I just want to be me.  I'm trying to be good to myself but am also sick of trying to see the good in everything.  I just want to be mad and know that everyone isn't thinking, "she must be tired" but instead "wow, I wonder what pissed her off?".  I get it, this is the new normal but I really miss the old sometimes.  On a positive note, this is the first time in a long time I've cried tears.  See there's that positive again! I know, go to bed! I feel a little better now, thanks for listening/reading. :)