Happy

I have been struggling the last few days with my mood.  I so badly want to better but maybe I just need to be myself...

Yesterday was an excellent example.  I took the boys to the Y for Sunday school and spent the day with many of my former students and their kids, talk about weird.  That's what happens when you teach for 25 years.  I was scared to try anything because I was soooo tired and didn't want to push too hard because I worked today.  I did finally go and put my suit on and tried to sit in the hot tub...too hot maybe lasted 15 minutes, then I remembered I had my tennis shoes in the car and could walk but I just was too unable to do this.  I know a few years ago I wouldn't have passed up the chance to be at the Y and workout.  I was angry at myself for not working out but I was even too tired to be mad.

I came home to a pigsty...It took me an hour to clean the house that I had left at 9:00 that morning.  Of course this was while I was being serenaded by Jerome's snores!! I wasn't a happy momma.  I made supper, grilled cheese and soup.  I then got to sit and watch tv which Jerome was in control of...yay...I love pawn stars!!!

I then got the kids in bed and got to use the computer and was able to setup a "date" with my nieces for the movie "God's Not Dead" on Tuesday.  I'm very excited to go with those two young ladies that like me...lol...Leah said she'd go if she didn't have to sit by me...:)

Today was very good! I think I'm getting settled in my new job and it could be worse, I could still be screwing up daily.  I need to lose some weight but even that I can handle. My new outfit looked good today and I felt better because of that.  Charlie did tell me I didn't look too good but he quickly shut up when I gave him "the look" It was just too funny...I love my coworkers, I love working by myself after all have left.

I need to remember that I'm going to have down days but it could always be worse, I could still be trying to managing sophomore boys daily.  Just can't let the little things get me down and I need to stop comparing my life today to my life 5 years ago...Life is good, I need to be happy, I AM happy!