Too good?

I cringe to think that everything went so well this week and last, every time I think something is going very well, it all goes to hell.  I need to slow myself down and continue to work one day at a time.  I know I got  a little tired on Thurs/Fri and was starting to get into a funk but I stopped and took a nap Fri afternoon and boy did I need it, 4+ hours helped amazingly  I then took my time on Saturday and didn't do much at all, I did work and did write a list of things I really wanted to do this weekend if possible.  I can say that I did everything on my list but I've been doing it in a very relaxing way.  I'm trying not to over do and/or get over confident because it always comes crashing down on me.  So I listened to my friend and talked through what I will be teaching tomorrow so that doesn't go poorly,I feel good about tomorrow.  I will be going  to bed early and read my book a bit.  I will do this, I will, tomorrow will go well/smoothly.

I also took the time to go to Church last night and received a wonderful message to keep working on what God wants and be a good witness to what he does.  I need to grow roots and I can't do it quickly or put pressures on myself and live up to unreal expectations, I would only be setting myself up for failure.  Slow and steady, I will continue to grow roots

New Year and New Life

I am starting this blog now 3 days before Christmas.  As I'm looking forward to a new year, I'm trying also to get into the Christmas spirit and I thought a little writing may help, my friend tells me it will help my brain.  I decided earlier this year that I wanted to start this blog to help organize my thoughts but am unable to use my kindle to do it and as my computer is unable to take a charge it has taken my this long to get myself together. 

I've named this blog rejoiceable, regrettable but never redoable simply because it has been my theme after pastor told me it in a sermon one Sunday last spring.  It is my theme in what I do now.  I really have put my brain on this especially after "the Tuesday" which is when I believe my life really came to life. 

"The Tuesday" was a very stressful day for myself.  It was in October I believe, Leah had a vball came and it was running later than I had planned, I got a text from Breanna asking me to go home and get her ice water for her game, I thought, I'll miss the start of Senior night then, but I went anyway, leaving Leah's game early, I got home and back in about 10 minutes only to get to the game and people started to ask me if I was "okay" only to realize I had missed the introduction of the Seniors.  I wasn't happy,  then the game started, Breanna didn't start, in fact she never went in the first game at which point I "lost it" I went for a walk outside and called Melissa.  I'm sure her ears were ringing, as I blamed everyone for screwing up my night after I blew off steam and burned it off too I went back in.  I watched the rest of the game which I think they lost. I then went home and screamed and had a fit with my family.  Wednesday I slept til about 1, I then realized there was bible study that night and I hadn't done the chapter which was supposed to be the previous week's lesson but had been put off a week.  It was from Ephesians where Paul talks about anger and how that isn't following God's way, I was amazed, I shared it with the ladies at Bible study that night then went to get Brayden from Jouney at the cross roads church.  He proceeded to tell me about the potters story about when he wasn't listening to God everything was messy but when he listened it was beautiful and he agreed that it was me too after last night.  God was talking to me, I needed to listen

Since then I'm trying my best to listen and feel that I'm more put together.  It is now time to start this new life and the new year is going to help me accomplish this.  I have a new job and a new outlook in life and it's time to embrace it.  I know that God planned all of this and will try to do a better job at listening, so that I can have a beautiful piece of pottery, just like Brayden told me. 

I am going to enjoy this family and this season.  I want to be at peace and I want my family to be at peace also.  So, cheers to a new year and a new life.  Time to build up my family and myself with God's word