I struggle with guilt daily. I think I want to make up for the things I've missed and I take on more guilt when I should be just moving on and rejoicing in what I'm able to do now.
It doesn't help that I talk things to death either. Jerome has never been talker and that doesn't help matters. He tells me to just let it be and he can do that but I cannot. I want to talk until I feel better, my girls don't like to talk either at least not about what I think I should do or fix. Leah is the worst. She is at the age of, do anything to make mom think you don't like her and have her do everything to try to get you to like her. She flat out tells me she doesn't love me which when I'm in the guilty mood, is just devastating. Good thing I have tough love Breanna to set me straight. Next year is going to be so hard without her.
I need to lay off feeling guilty about the things I cannot do and focus on the things I can. I can be a good mom. I can be a good wife. I can be a good friend. But I can't do any of this if I let guilt win. I need to put myself first and not guilt.
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