Thoughts on TBI

I really don't know what I want to write but I think it's important for me to get my thoughts down on what I'm thinking right now.

I've been told many times how lucky I am or how blessed I am, especially when I get frustrated with myself.   I don't know that I fully understand how bad it could be but I'm reading a book called "My Stroke of Insight" by Jill Bolte that was recommended to me by my therapist.  I will admit I don't like it very much but am going to keep reading it because I think she has some insight that I can benefit from. The author couldn't read and had issues talking after her brain injury which was a stroke.   I also have searched TBI on Pinterest and saw a woman that is a "miracle" that isn't even close to as "recovered" as I am.  I will never recover, I will just learn to think differently.  This frustrates me but I'm getting better at it. 

I think about God much more these days and am thankful with all my heart.  I believe this whole thing is being used by God to better my family.  I'm not stressing over my job anymore, I almost feel guilty leaving work and not taking any work home with me but I'm getting over that too.  I have a clean house and my family gets a mom and a wife that they deserve on top of it.  I can't say that I love my job as much as I loved teaching but I do like it a lot.  I may even start teaching English in January to Spanish speakers, I'm so excited to start this too.  These learners will hopefully be more motivated and more respectful.  It's something I preached to all of my students when I was in the high school when they would talk about the "Mexicans" and how they couldn't speak English, I always told them that it takes time to learn and that someone needs to teach them on their time and where they are comfortable.  I will be working with the Mexican grocery store in Marshfield to do the teaching, I'm so very excited.

TBI and I are never going to be friends but I will be able to accept it better now, I think.  Hopefully this blog will allow me to put my thoughts down as I go through this new life. Stay tuned for more.