Monday, December 22, 2025

It's still here

 I know when it's going to happen.  I try to plan it so that it doesn't happen.  Most of the time nobody knows but when I push too hard EVERYBODY knows.

My TBI  will be a part of my life forever.  I can make people believe it's gone and for them it is. That might be simply because I am either a good actress or is a good day and they are in my life temporarily.  My family is a different story.  They know what makes me anxious. They know how I can be at times.  I wish they would remember that.  Intellectually I know things but because I'm damaged I can't control how I react. I can try and i can try but it doesn't work.  I end up hurt by my own thoughts.  They don't want to hurt me but it still happens. 

We are very sarcastic people.  I cannot do sarcasm quickly anymore if I'm feeling insecure and tired sarcasm turns into truth.   

I found this info today and I wish I could be assured they would read this and remember my issues again. I had a bad Sunday morning after a family get together on Saturday.  It was me and my disability that took over my thoughts instead of enjoying the time we had. 

Here's the information that I think we all need to remember: 

Stress hits harder after a brain injury.


This takes place because, the injury itself disrupts the brain's ability to regulate emotions and manage stress hormones, making survivors more sensitive to stressors, exacerbating symptoms like: fatigue confusion, and increasing the risk for conditions like PTSD, creating a vicious cycle where stress worsens TBI recovery. 


Here are some examples why worse after 🧠 injury:

•Damage to emotional centers: Injuries to the limbic system (amygdala, hippocampus) impair emotional regulation, making feelings of anxiety and stress harder to control.

•Hormonal disruption: Damage to the hypothalamus and pituitary gland affects stress hormones (cortisol, adrenaline), keeping the body in a heightened state of alert.

•Cognitive overload: Stress increases the demand on an already compromised brain, worsening symptoms like memory issues, information processing difficulties, and mental fatigue.

•Heightened threat response: The brain stays on high alert, perceiving threats in everyday situations, perpetuating the stress cycle.


Here are a few examples of 🧠injury symptoms:

•Emotional: Anxiety, depression, irritability, anger, hopelessness, fear, feeling unlike yourself.

•Cognitive: Difficulty concentrating, memory problems, negative thoughts, "what if" cycles.

•Physical: Sleep problems, headaches, dizziness, shaking, rapid heart rate, fatigue, increased sensitivity to light/noise. 

Sunday, November 23, 2025

Long time, no post

 For some reason,  God showed me this again today.  

I am not in the best mindset this Sunday night. It's Thanksgiving week. I only have 5 days this week to work,  only 4 in Babcock.  

Jennifer is in vacation,  that's why Babcock.  I need to remind myself that I'm helping her have a great vacation.  I sure hope she is.  

As far as brain injury, I believe I'm doing well.  I'm just super tired of working.  I can't blame the injury for anything I'm feeling these days.  Only 164 calendar days left and I'll be retired.  

I didn't get to retire from teaching even though I get the benefits now so,  I'm fairly excited for my next adventure.  I'll be ready.