Saturday, August 2, 2014

just who I am...

I've decided that I'm not going to let TBI define me, it is just going to be something that happened and that's why I'm different.  I'm not going to "explain the brain injury again" like my eldest told me she's sick of hearing.  I'm going to be just me!!

I'm not a person that can remember everything.  I'm not a person that is super organized. I'm not a person that can do 20 things at a time.  I'm not a person that does well with strangers or large crowds.  I'm not a person that likes to wait.  I'm not a person that likes controversy. I'm not a person that runs for fun...it's not fun.  I'm not a person that likes to argue.

I am a person that needs to rest.  I am a person that tries not to judge.  I am a person that is willing to try.  I am a person that likes things clean.  I am a person that is dedicated.  I am a person that takes advantage of an opportunity.  I am a person that takes things very personally.  I am a worrier.  I am a person that reads. I am a person that chooses to live life to the best of my ability.  I am a person that will hold my ground in an argument if I know I'm right.  I am a person that will take on a challenge.

This is now who I am and everyone just needs to adjust.  This includes myself, I'm having a hard time with this and I thank my eldest for yelling at me the other day..."don't tell me anymore about your brain injury, I'm sick of hearing it".  It sounded cruel to me initially but it really got my butt out of a funk (I hope).  I'm now not going to react, I'm going to do a better job of accepting it. It's just who I am!!